6 Month Eval.

 

Back here in Nashville again. Great to connect with people from the old days. It’s good to take a break from the “wheel” in Kona. Too much work isn’t always a good thing. It’s a bit intense. Just taking couple weeks traveling between Chicago and Tennessee visiting family, taking time to evaluate life’s endeavors-how it’s going so far? what needs to change? is it something to stick with? It’s helpful to step out and see things for what they are. Aside from being with family and friends, evaluation is part of the mission during this time.

Angelo and I

Angelo and I

Nashville has worn many faces for me over the years. I first came here to live in 1998 when I got married. That was 3 years-plus or minus. Then I came back with Hans and the band in 2004 for about a year. I returned in 2006 to “grow up” and try to plant and grow a business. That lasted through 2009. I’ve been married, divorced, drunk, and sober here but the place is more or less the same.

It is interesting though, how a place can be so different looking back; the same stores, same streets, but thinking of them in different years, they’re different. In the married period, it was dark and hazy. In the country just north of town, there was lots of talk, but goals and resolutions amounted to little. Counseling and plans were just meaningless talk but no follow through on anything. Eventually you stop because nothing amounts to anything anyway. Why bother? How long can you hope in nothing? “Let’s get some beers instead.”

Me, Britt, Teddy, Weeze, Mom, Lars, and Emerald

Me, Britt, Teddy, Weeze, Mom, Lars, and Emerald

The period after that was one of whiskey instead of beers because why not! It’s celebration! Or more like a self-destructive rampage. A time to see that lots of what was blamed on another was mine and mine alone. The last time I lived in Nashville, was a time to get real about life. Where are you going? What are you doing? If you keep doing this for another 20 years, where will you end up? Time to become a member at a church and start giving something back. Time to build a business. Time to follow through. Time to stop blaming people and quit drinking, going to AA, getting a sponsor, and letting the rest fall away… surrender.

So, back to evaluation… it seems good to do often. If I believe in taking risks, am I taking them? If I believe in making time for people, am I making time? …prioritizing family, not overbooking myself, praying because it really works… whatever the ideal is, are decisions being made that back the ideals?

The words of Socrates ring true, “The unexamined life is not worth living.”

Me, Bill, Jeremy, and Nick

Me, Bill, Jeremy, and Nick

Regret. Recognizing in retrospect that time was spent slaving for the approval of God and man when all he wants is a son and people are not satisfied anyway. Seeing that the only thing blocking the way is a closed mind.

Life is a school. God is teaching all the time through everything.

There are no limits to what he can say or how he can work.

What a person believes about God is the single most important mindset anyway.

 

There’s a great song called Relatively Easy by Jason Isbell with a line that says,

“Take a year and make a break,

there ain’t that much at stake,

the answers could be relatively easy.”

 

…and a couple verses…

 

“”Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and YOU WILL FIND REST FOR YOUR SOULS. “For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”

Matthew 11:29-30

Bella, Don and I

Bella, Don and I